So weeks have gone by, I've sent the email to my almost agent querying certain clauses and I'm still waiting for them to get back to me. The solicitor I used reckons they're no longer interested and he could be right. However, on this occasion, I've decided to keep an optimistic head on my shoulders. I figure I'm not important enough in the food chain to be contacted yet. I imagine if JK emails her agent or publisher, they'll be returning her mail with a personal call within minutes if not seconds.That's the kind of power I hope to one day have, not because I'm a power hungry psycho, but because I'm too impatient. I'm part of the want it to happen now brigade, the kind of person who would put the kettle on and keep checking within seconds to see if its boiled. Not a good trait, but I'm [...]

DJ,I just got the contractual agreement from my agent and instead of celebrating, I'm being such a wuss.  I think there is something wrong with me, surely this is what I've been waiting for, an agent to represent me and my interests.  But the little cynical part of my brain won't let me enjoy this little victory.  No, it keeps whispering to me, get a lawyer to read the contract, make sure you're not giving away your rights, negotiate, do this and do that and protect yourself.  So now that I've given myself a headache, I've decided to hire a lawyer and spend money I don't have, just so they can help me decipher what this agreement says.  I've read it 3 times and I felt like I was reading some obscure biblical ancient text.I now feel the need to go back to university to learn this foreign language.Moving on, [...]

DJ,It's official I've got an agent.  Well I've almost got an agent, haven't signed anything yet but YIKES, yep I did a little dance.  However the practical part of me is preaching caution, I know that it means nothing.  What I'm excited about is the fact that again, I have possibilities and I can speculate and  hypothesize till my little hearts content.  It was 5am when my eyes popped open, when all of a sudden I thought to myself I could get a book deal, I have someone working for me who believes in the possibility of a book deal.  Last month I was worrying about whether anyone would actually want to buy the book.  I guess this is the nature of having a dream and pursuing it like a headless chicken.  Everyone says, how did you do it, how did you generate a buzz.  Personally, I don't hear or see the buzz, [...]