Where have the words gone is a question I keep asking myself.  Which ones should I put next to each other to form a coherent sentence? Which ones make sense, what combination of squiggles on the page will make a reader laugh, cry, see the world in a different light or even make them change something about themselves?Thoughts tumble around in my head, no structure, no rhyme or reason. Fragments, the beginning of something that makes sense of the sensless, the tragedies, the comedies and the dramas that life presents.

'Should I or shouldn't I' is the question I've been asking myself all day.  Six weeks ago, I applied for an Arts Council grant, the response arrived in my letterbox yesterday morning and I still haven't opened the envelope.  I'm being a scardy cat, in my heart of hearts I reckon it's a rejection.  Hence the reason I don't want to open it, I want to go to bed dreaming I've received the grant.Why don't I just open the damn thing and get it over with instead of putting myself through the torture of not knowing? You may ask that question and I actually have a response that makes sense in Sade's World.  For those who don't know, this tiny part of the universe does exist.  At this point in time, precisely 01:45 hrs, I'm not able to deal with the rejection that may exist, I want to keep my [...]

Yep it's been awhile, but since I'm only having a conversation with myself, it hardly matters whether or not I post here daily or monthly. Talking of monthly, I'm making a pact with myself to at least post 3 times a month. We'll see how long that lasts. No doubt it'll go the way of all my New Years' resolutions. I'll keep it up for a couple of months then something more pressing will no doubt take over. Well I just realised that I have no pictures on this blog, so I'm going to put pics from my library readings up. I quite like the ones where I'm reading to an audience of chairs, hmm I know I'm crazy, but no one turned up so I figured I'd practice for my next reading. That I might add also didn't go too well, only 3 showed up to that :-)

DJ,Is name dropping a good thing, especially if it opens doors that otherwise would've remained shut?    Still trying to push the book out but not making much headway, so decided to follow-up on the idea of having a PR person.  Sam from Henry's house, (found them on the internet) never got back to me, so I took it that: a. she didn't pass on my details, b. she did and the person wasn't interested or c. We all know what C. is, it's too horrifying and traumatic for me to even write down.  Seeing as they're not the only agency in the UK, I decided to look for someone else.  Let's face it, whoever I do end up with, is probably going to do a better job than me.  Anyway, moving on swiftly 'cos I don't like to dwell on my own inadequacies.  I was reading Scott's blog and [...]